Labels: musings

written at 00:28 0 comments

Wow, it's been well over two months since I've last blogged. Guess working life has really taken a toll on me. In addition to constantly feeling sleepy, all the weight I lost whilst in Japan has gradually found its way back to my body, ha-ha. However, overall, I can't really complain much about my job. I'm just still at the stage where I'm trying to find my groove at work, and commuting can be a real bitch. Other than that, I'm thankful. This VLOG was actually filmed whilst I was away on a department retreat. I know right? Working for less than two months and I get to travel with my company already, ha-ha. Anyway, I'm just dropping in to say that I'm still alive. Enjoy the VLOG - it may be a tad bit long and boring. I'll try to make my future VLOGs more entertaining!

Labels: bangkok, musings, travel, videos

written at 15:49 0 comments

01. DHS, VJC, SMU (some friends still feel I’m a himbo)
02. Used to play competitive Volleyball, until I tore 2 ligament in 2007
03. Used to be in English Drama, probably why I lie so well (disclaimer, I mostly tell white lies, ha-ha)
04. A degree in business was actually my back-up choice
05. ENTJ – generally friendly despite resting bitch face
06. Rupaul’s Drag Race, ANTM, 2 Broke Girls, Grey’s Anatomy – If you watch any of these religiously, let’s be friends!
07. Loves jet setting & try to do so at least once a year
08. Sushi: give me this & I’ll cheer up instantly
09. Very low patience for things in general
10. Tough love kind of person; if you need molly coddling, go away please
11. Wear caps very often because I’m too lazy to do my hair
12. Plan outfits I want to wear WAY in advance (friends judge me for this)
13. 2 piercings: 1 from 2005, 1 from 2011
14. No tattoos, but I’ve considered getting inked for a VERY long time now
15. Was once a waist size 40 (currently a 32-34, depending on the brand)
16. Bucket list: bungee jump, helicopter ride, visit Santorini
17. Diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder
18. I’m judgemental, but I give everyone a chance because I recognise that my judgements aren’t always accurate
19. Appreciate self-deprecating humour, but don’t understand people who constantly put themselves down
20. ZERO sense of direction

Labels: frivolous, musings

written at 21:51 0 comments

I decided to do this entry today because I don't want to delay it any further. Just finished packing my luggage for my HK get-away this week and I've a packed day tomorrow catching up with friends before they fly off for exchange. Can't believe school's starting next week, where did my summer go?! Okay, I'm kidding. All things considered, this is my most productive and fruitful summer of my university life. I've made new friends, reconnected with old ones, completed my overseas community service project and wrapped my internship. 1 more year of studies and I'm ready to graduate. Feels surreal; feels like only yesterday, I was a young boy complaining about not being able to grow up fast enough, and here I am, on the final stretch of my educational journey (yes, I know we never stop learning etc. but you get the point I'm trying to make).

Right, enough reminiscing. This entry is supposed to document my 2.5 months experience interning at TheFARM Singapore. I remember feeling extremely relieved when I was finally offered a position. I assumed it was because they had problems finding other interns and I got the job by default, ha-ha (I later found out they actually rejected a few interns). To be fair, I was offered another internship at a different company, but I turned that down because I had already accepted TheFARM's offer.

So, I went in for 2 days of unpaid work to sort of orientate myself a little (before my OCSP trip). Turns out I am currently the only intern who has ever done that, ha-ha. Guess I didn't know how to say no. I was still unsure of what my job responsibilities were exactly, just that my title was a Community Management Intern. This made adjusting to working life difficult in the beginning. I wasn't sure what was supposed to be my responsibilities and what were supposed to be the other intern(s) responsibilities. Admittedly, I got annoyed at times for being delegated more work, as well as being the only intern that had to do administrative work. I recognise that interns will ultimately be assigned administrative work no matter what. But it pissed me off that I was the only one being targeted to do it. Oh and yes, I'm used to having dinner with my family almost every day (and we eat very early - 1800H), so the working hours and location of the office definitely added to the difficulty of adjusting to working life.

The chunk of text above summarises all that was going on in my mind at the point in time. Of course, I didn't verbalise any of this because I constantly reminded myself to be grateful for having this opportunity and that I should focus on being appreciative rather than whining. However, I think some of my resentment eventually translated into my working behaviour. Fortunately, I managed to turn things around and got a better handle on things a month into the job. I finally just told myself that all the work I was being given was because I was capable enough to do it and I should take it all in my stride and treat it as a learning experience no matter what.

Overall, I'm proud of what I've accomplished during this brief stint of working life. The struggles at the start were good, it was an eye-opener that I'd rather have as an intern than a full-time staff. I learnt quite a bit about myself - that I'm more resistant to change than I thought. This is something I'll need to work on. I've also learnt I'm quite calm under pressure and I can think quick on my toes. My boss mentioned that I've a superb eye for attention to detail, ha-ha. I'd like to think that both my supervisor and boss are happy with the work that I've done. There's so much more that I've learnt on this internship experience that I couldn't possibly fit into this small space. I guess at the end of the day, what I'm trying to express is how thankful I am for being given such an opportunity and this is just my way of trying to document the memory of feeling appreciative.

Labels: internship, musings

written at 23:01 0 comments

HELLO! How's everyone doing? I've been feeling great recently. I honestly think it's thanks to the end of the semester and the fact that I know how I'm going to spend my summer. In a way, I'm not busy fretting over what to do or how to pass time - i.e. have to make plans like crazy lest I rot away at home and become Jabba the Hutt. In exactly 2 weeks, I'll be flying off to China to do my overseas community service in a teaching college. Immediately after that, I'll be starting my internship at a digital marketing agency.

Yup, that's right. I got my internship! As of now, nothing is official yet. I've yet to sign the contract or even see the letter of offer. I do, however, have an informal acceptance via email. So for now, I'm just waiting for the administrative stuff to be completed over on their end. Hopefully, they'll get back to me soon so I can process it with the school's system before I fly off (actually, I HAVE to do it before I fly off). Might drop them an email by mid-week next week if I still haven't heard back from them.

Please let everything go smoothly. I'm somewhat afraid the company might withdraw their offer at the last minute. Either way, I went for an interview with another company on Monday. I've yet to hear back from them. I hope it'll be good news as well even though I won't be accepting it. At least I can get some sort of reassurance that another company wants me as well. Plus, it's always good to have a back up. Bah, okay, enough about internships.

Yeah, as you can probably tell, my schedule will be packed from mid May all the way up till school starts in August. Yikes, my final year in SMU. Don't want to think about that for now. Let's slot that in the same file as the release of results shall we? Although, 1 of my professors released our informal grades today. Didn't do as well as I had hoped, but at least it wasn't completely atrocious.

For now, I'll be spending most of my spare time at home slacking, watching videos and playing Diablo 3. I've been kind of lazy to ask friends out. Not that anyone has asked me out as well. I don't mean to sound bitter, just stating it as a matter of fact kind of way. It's always been the case anyway. People either think I'm too busy doing god knows what, assume I'm not interested in the things they plan to do, don't think of asking me out because it just didn't occur to them or all of the above, ha-ha. It's refreshing to have so much alone time actually. Although, I should be putting my time to better use, like tidying up my room and organising my life. I'll start... next week, ha-ha. Alright, that's enough stream of consciousness for now. I'm going back to watch my videos.

Labels: friends, musings

written at 00:22 0 comments

Over the years, my interest in photography has grown somewhat. I mean, as of now, I still consider this as just a part time hobby. I am by no means a professional photographer. Hell, my camera isn't even a DSLR, ha-ha. But, I've become more particular about the kinds of photos I upload. I'm also becoming more of a perfectionist in some sense? Which I'm pretty sure is a trait all professional photographers have, LOL. I guess what I'm trying to say is - I'm making a more conscious effort to be aware of my surroundings, and take pictures of things other than just food or myself or my friends. I wish I were able to bring my camera out more often, and just walk around, looking for interesting objects to snap. It'd be fun to have a partner-in-crime to do this with, ha-ha. Well, I'll be on the look out, for both photography enthusiasts as well as fascinating subject matters :)

Labels: musings

written at 00:36 0 comments

So I discovered that I miraculously have no meetings today. Rushed home after school to... slack, ha-ha. Have not slacked in quite a long time so I'm very thankful for being able to stretch lazily in bed, with the air conditioning blasting on a warm Monday afternoon. I even had time to play around with my blog HTML and edit the template a little. Felt that it was time for some change, but not too much of course, ha-ha. Okay, back to more bumming around before facing the harsh realities of tomorrow.

Labels: frivolous, lookbook, musings

written at 17:40 0 comments

As promised, here's a picture of my new hair after having just woken up in the morning. I now have to blow dry my hair every time I shower, if not I'll end up looking like I have a nest on my skull. I haven't headed out since the hair cut, so I've yet to experiment with how to style it. No one at home has commented on it and I'm taking that to be a good thing. Usually if I do something drastic to my hair, my family members won't hold back with their remarks, ha-ha. Spent the whole day procrastinating today, even though I really should have been doing work. PLEASE let tomorrow be a more productive day.

Labels: friends, musings

written at 20:41 0 comments

I felt like I should fill this post with some words instead of constantly doing photo entries, ha-ha. I'm lazy like that. These pictures were taken during Sunday brunch with the family. Glad my ASOS orders have finally arrived, just in time for CNY. I slightly regret buying one of the tops though, the neck hole is really loose and it looks bad on me =/ Ah well, got to make it work I suppose. Got my hair done at last today - it needs some getting use to and definitely a lot more high maintenance now that I've got it permed backwards so I can achieve the backcomb look more easily. If I don't properly blow dry my hair after I shower, I look like I escaped from a mental institution. Photos of my new hair style possibly in a separate post, we'll see. Kind of swamped with school stuff right now, even though there really isn't THAT much going on yet. I'm just a bit overwhelmed and burnt out already. I know, it's only Week 03! Here's hoping I can stick to my 2014 improvements.

Labels: lookbook, musings

written at 22:50 0 comments

I've never liked the term "resolutions", so I decided to use "improvements" instead. Not sure if it makes much of a difference to you, but personally, the former makes it seem like a chore while the latter makes it seem like something I'd want to strive to achieve to make life even better, ha-ha. Ah, technicalities. Not sure if I'm making much sense, but whatever.

Anyway, I know this entry is somewhat late since it's already a good 12 days into the 2014. However, I've been swamped with tons of shit since the 1st day of the year and have hardly any time to stop and breathe. Churning this entry before I go get ready for brunch with the family, after which I'm going to spend the rest of the day preparing for my Strategy class tomorrow. #SMUggerlife

So yes, back to the list of improvements. I thought of a few things I'd want to improve on this year and tried to be as realistic as possible about them, giving my personality traits a major consideration at the same time, LOL.

1) Be more OCD when it comes to maintaining my Instagram account.

I actually mentioned this on my Instagram a few days ago (follow @havocmama). Basically, I went bonkers yet again and deleted like over a 100 photos. I guess it's slightly easier now to clear out my feed than it was back then where I had to just delete the entire account and start over. I cleared out all photos that weren't square-cropped, that felt like an impulsive upload and that were pic-stitched to death. I'm aiming for a more artistic, hipster, pretentious feed, while at the same time infusing it with my personality as much as possible, LOL.

2) Eat cleaner and healthier (since I'm way too lazy to exercise regularly).
3) Be more hardworking when it comes to school (do my best to pull up my flailing GPA).
4) Do my best to not sweat the small stuff (water off a duck's back).
5) Make more of an effort to dress up when heading out of the house.
6) Prioritise sleep more (I tend to stay up watching videos even when I'm dead tired).

I guess that's about all I can think of so far. On top of this list of improvements, I need to constantly remind myself to be careful with my interactions with people in general this year. I read the fortune for people born in the Year of Horse for 2014 and it warns about losing one's reputation over mishandling certain issues. In general, the reading advices to stay low profile and to be more frugal. I'm quite superstitious when it comes to things like this. I mean, better safe than sorry right? So I'm going to do my best to heed these advices, ha-ha. I'd say let me know what your 2014 improvements are, but I doubt anyone would comment on this entry (if anyone is reading it at all). So I'm signing off by saying that I hope everyone will be able to stick to their 2014 improvements :)

Labels: frivolous, musings

written at 10:26 0 comments

My family and I will be leaving for a short cruise today, and when I say short, I MEAN short. It'll be from Friday - Monday only, meh. As much as I would prefer a longer vacation, we have to make do since we technically can't really travel very far with a 1 year old in tow, ha-ha. Thought I'd get this post in just before we deport later, since I'll be wanting to blog about the trip when I get back.

Went for the VIP (Victoria Integrated Programme) Alumni Dinner last Friday with my ex-classmates. It's hard to imagine that 8 years have just flown by like that. In some ways, it's quite sad that the programme is coming to an end. It definitely gave me a lot of fond memories to look back on and even though I often say that the programme really wasn't for me, I have no regrets whatsoever going over to VJC in 2005 thanks to the invaluable bunch of friends that I've made. I know, sounds cheesy and corny, but it's honestly how I feel. I mean, yes, I would have probably done better academically if I had stayed on in DHS. I may not even be an SMU Business Student if I hadn't left DHS. BUT, who's to know how different things would have REALLY been if I had not joined VIP, am I right?

No surprises that the event itself sucked, ha-ha. It IS organised by a bunch of 15 year olds, so I went into it with SUPREMELY low expectations. It is unfortunate though that the LegenDIARY book that they were raving about, which is suppose to document the 8 years of the VIP, was SO ABYSMAL. THAT, I had high expectations for. I was expecting something along the lines of a VJC yearbook? Something hardcover-ed and substantial; but it turned out to be more of a pamphlet? Enormously disappointing. Honestly, I'm not sure where all the money from the ticket sales went to. Ah well, no use whining now I suppose. I guess we should focus more on being grateful for the effort that was put in to organise the event? Ha-ha, on my end, I'm still trying to adjust that focus.


My classmates and I booked a suite at The Sultan Hotel to gather after the alumni dinner. Nothing fancy and it's like my first ever hotel party sans alcohol. ONLY with my V12 classmates will I ever have such a party, ha-ha. Did what we normally do at our gatherings - make a bunch of noise and laugh like mad and generally, have an awesome time. Kind of thankful that we were located near a pub. I think the thumping music next door sort of drowned out all the noise we were making. We did take a group photo there, but I have a feeling it is in Tina's camera and the girl is now gallivanting in Australia.

To end off this entry on a more unconventional note, I'd like to dedicate this post to the friends that I've made after joining VIP. Here's to 8 years of great memories and many more to come. I'm thankful in different ways for meeting each and every one of you (you know who you are). Looking forward to attending all your weddings and playing with all your babies (even though I myself won't be getting married OR having children). You guys are really special to me and I hope we continue to keep in touch :)

Labels: friends, musings, school

written at 02:05 0 comments

Labels: friends, musings, photo entry

written at 09:22 0 comments

01) The exact time in which I was born is 1914H (my parents used to buy this 4D number).
02) I can wear kids 'XL' for Polo Ralph Lauren (saved so much money at the factory outlets).
03) So far, I only enjoy watching American Sitcoms (not a fan of HK/Korean/Taiwan/British shows).
04) Speaking of TV shows, I've watched ALL cycles of ANTM and know who ALL the winners are.
05) I don't know how to roller blade (and will probably never want to learn due to a busted right knee).
06) I've skydived (you would know this if you've read my other entries actually).
07) I've travelled quite a fair bit (Thailand, Indonesia, M'sia, Australia, Japan, S.Korea, Taiwan, HK, UK, US, Canada).
08) At Subway, I eat ALL the vegetables EXCEPT the black olives.
09) When I was young, I ONLY ate chicken rice when at hawker centres (and I'd spam the dark sauce).
10) My favourite parts of the body are the collar bones and the tapered part of the ankles.

11) I moved house once when I was 10, but have been in the east part of SG since I was 1 (am currently 23).
12) Before I turned 1, I actually lived in Clementi (talk about 飘洋过海).
13) I've been dead drunk twice - where you blackout and can't remember shit (don't ever want to relive that).
14) When I was young, I wanted to grow up and become a teacher (LOL, fat chance of that happening now).
15) I was in the RSAF when I served my NS, kind of awesome, especially since my base was super nearby.
16) If I'm having a sandwich for breakfast, it HAS to be something savory (no jam, peanut butter, nutella, kaya).
17) My favourite type of food is Japanese (if I had to eat sushi & only sushi for the rest of my life, I'd be ok with that).
18) I REALLY dislike beans and taco shells (something I discovered whilst on exchange).
19) My favourite singer is Christina Aguilera.
20) I can't sing to save my life but was once delusional enough to think I could sign up for Singapore Idol.

21) I really like Charmed and my FIRST ever blog URL was -power-of-three-.blogspot.com
22) I used to have an immense fear of heights, it sort of just went away.
23) I HATE horror movies, am an absolute pussy and think watching those movies are a waste of my money.
24) I've waxed my legs twice in my life and have decided that it isn't really for me.
25) I have 2 ear piercings, but the ear holes are 7 years apart.
26) I used to own fishes and hamsters; didn't really take very good care of them.
27) I've known my BFF since I was 7 (and we're still BFFs).
28) I've deleted my old Tumblr because for some reason, I used to blog on it.
29) I've deleted my old Instagram account (Went through a phase where I took ALOT of really gross 'selfies' - sighs).
30) The nickname 'havocmama' sort of came about when I first started using Twitter & Instagram
(I wanted something more interesting besides just my name and it was around the time I started clubbing).

31) I've never been in a long term relationship (I have a feeling I'll be single forever and TBH, I'm okay with that).
32) If I had to pick my FAVOURITE thing to eat at a hawker centre, it'll either be Bak Chor Mee or Popiah.
33) I got my driver's license on my 2nd attempt an am actually a terrible driver.
34) For 2 years in a row, I held the school record for Shot Put back in VJC.
35) My dad once gave me S$10 to jump rope 1000 times (in an attempt to help me lose weight).
36) I'm a huge fan of Sims1, 2 & 3 but I always play with cheat codes so I get bored really quickly.
37) My favourite game of all time is Kingdom Hearts.
38) I am a terrible DOTA and DOTA2 player but a fairly decent LOL player.
39) I was about to type something else I LOVE ROLLER COASTERS.
40) The show I've probably watched the most is FRIENDS.

41) I used to buy Archie Comics every week (this continued for a few years I think, sold them all eventually).
42) My first book was by Enid Blyton & my first CD was by Toy-box (some Danish duo).
43) I used to RUSH home just to watch Teletubbies (slams head against the wall).
44) If I could have a super power, it would be teleportation.
45) I've had 2 major operations - 1 for repairing my right knee ligaments and 1 for removing my gall bladder.
46) I once helped built 2 water purification tanks in a village in Chiang Mai, Thailand.
47) When I get nervous, especially when doing public speaking, my voice gets really high pitched.
48) I'm the total opposite of people who LOVE alone time; I'd much rather have companionship.
49) I enjoy spoilers, in fact most of the time I actually spoil the end of movies/books for myself.
50) I fell on my face while playing 'crocodile' on the sit up benches in primary school
(I think that's why my nose is so flat).

Labels: frivolous, musings

written at 03:44 0 comments

Okay, just a random update because life has been pretty lacklustre lately. I still have my midnight curfew after that drunken incident, which is kind of annoying because even if I want to stay out late and not drink/club, I can't. Ah well, it'll pass, eventually. Don't want to dwell on the negatives, that isn't me.
So, yay! Finally fitted this pair of frames that I bought back in 2011 from Taiwan :D I realised that all my other frames, except the one I normally wear, are broken or bent out of shape. I don't know how or why, but it means that I have no spare spectacles. Well, okay I do have ONE pair but it's SUPER hideous so I went ahead and got this pair ready before flying off for my exchange. In my head, I was just thinking the other day before I fell asleep - what if I lose my contact lens and my regular spectacles when I'm abroad? An unlikely occurrence but I wanted to be safe; so long story short, this is why I made a spare pair. And yes, I just dedicated one entire entry to my new spectacles, ha-ha.


NAH, add in some photos of food as well. Had these, plus some fried dumplings (but they looked too ugly in the photo, so I didn't want to post them), for Sunday brunch over at 老北京食堂, Orchard Central. Food was good but pricey, so go only if you are loaded, have some sort of discount or aren't paying, LOL. I went because my friend had some discount, ha-ha. Definitely not loaded and sadly, no sugar daddy.
Actually, I have more food photos from supper over at Bedok 85 on Saturday. But again, the carrot cake, oyster omelette and bak chor mee looks quite ugly in the photos I took, so not going to post them, ha-ha. I need better food photography skills. Okay, signing off from my super random post.

Labels: food, musings

written at 21:21 0 comments

So just the other day, I was listening to my music on the iPhone while on the way home when my iPhone suddenly died on me. The battery life on my iPhone has gotten from bad to worse, and it doesn't help that when I get bored, I tend to stalk social media a lot, hence draining the battery life even further.
As such, I decided that it was time to revive my old iPod that I got way back in my JC1 days. It's been out of commission for so long that I could barely remember some of the songs that I previously uploaded onto it. I decided to restore the whole thing and put in a similar music library as my iPhone. Haven't gotten round to uploading videos into it yet though. Yup, this iPod is the latest one that was released before the iPhone. It accompanied me through many long duties back when I was in NS.


It got me thinking that how, just a couple of years ago, these (pictured above) were considered to be old school. Now, I look at my iPod and consider THAT old school. In fact, I'd look at an iPhone 3Gs and consider THAT old school, LOL. My sister-in-law's mother uses her iPhone 3Gs for making calls etc. and her iPhone 5 for taking photos, playing games and accessing social media. I wonder how many more years it'll take for the iPod to be completely phased out, like the Walkman or Discman.

On a separate note, WHY ISN'T THE LATEST IPAD MINI OUT YET?! My dad mentioned a few weeks ago that he wants to buy me an iPad, simply because he thinks that it'll be of great use to me in school and even on my summer exchange. But, I heard from sources (well, mainly my apple fanatic friends) that the latest iPad mini will be launched either this month or in September. Am I to assume, because there is no news yet of the latest iPad mini, that the launch will take place 5 months from now instead? I guess I can wait :( I mean, the iPad mini is definitely not a need, it's more of a "oh, since dad offered to buy me one, why not?" I'll probably retire my iPod again when I do get an iPad mini. It's going to be kind of ridiculous to head out and bring with me an iPhone, iPod and iPad mini (maybe even my MacBook Pro as well if I'm headed to school). We shall see, I'll let you guys know again 5 months from now, ha-ha.

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written at 14:27 0 comments

You might remember this tweet that I sent out a while ago if you follow me on twitter :) I splurged on a brand new bag, firstly because I haven't bought myself anything in Singapore since I can last remember. Most of my shopping is done overseas as most of my allowance is spent on food, movies and clubbing =X Secondly, I didn't really get myself anything for my birthday, didn't even celebrate it this year, so I thought I'd spoil myself a little bit even though I'm supposed to be saving my ass off for my exchange. Decided on getting a Kanken Bag-Pack online since there was a 15% sale. Moreover, its supposedly the up and coming hipster bag, so I'm going to get it before everyone starts owning one :p Expected it to arrive a little later than this, but wouldn't you know it, 17 days later and I came home from school to a lovely package :D


This is going to accompany me all the way to Canada and the United States during my summer exchange/holiday. It's a teensy bit smaller than expected so I'm not too sure if it'll be enough as a hand carry for my 27 hour flight across The Atlantic. Tickets have been purchased at last and I'm getting more excited/nervous as the departure date draws closer. Still contemplating if I should work part time before I fly off, just to earn that extra bit of cash to spend abroad. We'll see... Anyway, I'm kind of beat from my long day, so I'm going to hit the sack soon like a retired geriatric.

Labels: musings, photo entry

written at 21:48 0 comments

OHAI! Haven't been blogging much because I've been pretty caught up with school and life in general. I went bonkers and deleted all of my past entries, less the first entry and the Hong Kong food entries. I'm anal retentive this way. I decided that I want a main concept/theme for each entry and not have it be super jumbled up and all over the place. Yup, hopefully I'll stop with these random bouts of deleting things (like how I deleted my old Tumblr and Instagram account) now that I have a clear idea what I want my blogging style to be like.

2013 so far has been relatively ho-hum. I applied for OCSP in Shang Hai and was rejected :( Now, I'm hoping to get the OCSP in Chiang Mai. More importantly, hoping to get my summer exchange in UBC. Never been to Canada before and it'll definitely be one of the highlights of my year. Do keep a look out for future entries, I'll promise to update with more interesting entries (at least from my POV) and not overly neglect this space. Currently showering too much attention on my new Tumblr and Instagram account. Ha-ha, okay, I'll go back to trying to pay attention in class now.

Labels: musings

written at 09:18 0 comments

After so many years (roughly 7 if I remember correctly), I'm finally back to using blogger. Gosh, I forgot how tedious all the HTML configuring can be - too spoilt by the limits of template customisation on LiveJournal, WordPress and Tumblr, ha-ha. I don't really know why I decided to start using blogger again, probably just to troll another avenue of social media and garner more attention for myself, lol. I do however remember why I stopped blogging for a while now, choosing to just post pictures on Tumblr instead.

Don't get me wrong, I haven't abandoned my Tumblr account. This will just be more of an outlet for me to spew larger chunks of random thoughts that I can't squeeze to fit in a single Tweet. I must remind myself not to make the same mistakes I did in the past though. Back then, I was TOO comfortable blogging about anything and everything under the sun, completely disregarding the fact that some of the things I write about shouldn't really see the light of day. I guess it's all about striking a balance between having your voice heard but not compromising on the things people tell you in private. Oh and yes, I've also learnt that it is NEVER a good idea to do angry, impulse entries that you'll end up regretting later.

Another reason why I gave up blogging was because I just became too darn lazy. Although it might not seem like much work (if you've never really blogged before), churning out entries can be quite tiring at times. And I know I'm not some famous online sensation who has tons of followers who are dying to see my latest updates, but back then, I think one of the reasons I felt compelled to blog so often was to give whoever read my blog the impression that I had a life. Oh damn, I just realised how sad that sounded as I typed it out. Eventually, it felt too much like a chore I created for myself. So I suppose now that I'm blogging for no one in particular, except maybe myself, I won't get sick of it (? hopefully) and maybe this blog will actually stick around for a while. I know this comes off as ironic when I mentioned earlier about blogging again to garner attention for myself. Just so you know, whoever it is that's reading this, I was kidding.

Lastly, I think the main reason why I decided to create this blog now was because I wanted to secure the URL, HA-HA. I'm using thehavocmama.blogspot.sg because apparently, some random woman who has only ONE blog post is already using havocmama (WTF). Hence, I had no choice but to add the 'the' to my alias which seems to have grown on me over the months. To be honest, I can't remember when I came up with the nickname. I only know it was when I was trying to come up with a more creative twitter nick, as opposed to mythickerskin or drustanus. The idea most likely surfaced during the period when I was clubbing like mad, no surprises there.

And with that, I think I'll end off my first entry. Don't want to look back at this in the future and think to myself, "Gosh, he seriously doesn't know when to stop". Overly wordy entries are a pain in the ass to read in my opinion.

Labels: musings

written at 21:29 0 comments